Two Years....

Wow. Two years ago I started Calligraphie Moor up. I was bored out of my mind living in Houston, Texas. I had JUST quit what I thought was my dream job, being an ABA therapist. I dyed my hair purple. Then one day, I up and left my then boyfriend, ending things with him practically out of the blue and returned to West Texas to my parents house. I found myself apart of the boomerang generation. I found myself jobless. I found myself lost. I had no idea what I was going to do. I thought of pursuing my Master's degree, and was even accepted to a program. But then I ended up trying to fund my college dreams and I found myself working at an elementary. The principal loved me. She loved me so much she offered me a teaching position I wasn't qualified for, or so I thought. I took online classes and became a fully certified teacher.

Meantime, my love life was all over the place. There were real flings and crushes on the wrong people. There was an affair that should have never happened.

It all led up to finding the one. In a bar. How typical. He was introduced to me in November of 2014 and I barely gave him the time of day. But then on New Years Eve 2014 my best friend and I stumbled, well actually almost ran him over when he drunkly stumbled into the streets trying to call a cab, into the man I will spend the rest of forever with. We picked him up and drove him around for three hours trying to find hot dogs. That moment changed my life forever. Hot dogs changed my life y'all. He showed up at the same bar again the next night and we really hit it off. I poured my soul out to him in the front seat of my best friend's car. And then we made out. And then he showed up again the next night. But I felt sick from lack of sleep and drinking far too much for my body to handle, so I went home. At some point we exchanged phone numbers and Facebook pages and started texting each other. One day after many, many, attempts at asking me to date him I stood in the middle of a Walmart aisle surrounded by towels and finally said yes. And like many whirlwind romances we fell in love quickly. Whispering to each other in a hotel room "I love you" for the first time. 11 days into the relationship. Three months into the relationship we decided to try for a baby. On November 19th, I downed an entire thing of Starbucks coffee and immediately regretted it. At lunch time, I went home. I knew something was up; I was late. I peed on a stick and there beaming back at us was two little pink lines. Bright as the light of day. 100% certainty of our future. We were parents. In January he tricked me with a small dog and proposed to me.

And now....well it's July and it's 9 months later and we are eagerly awaiting the arrival of our first son any day now. I sit in his childhood room as I type this and he is off working on our house. The house he is building for us and our child. He's giving life to all of my dreams; and I've never been more happy than I am in this moment. Even if I can't breathe because of our child occupying all of the space in my body.

And that's what can happen in two years time.

The Goal.

The goal is to have a job by August 31st! I'm applying to one job a day until I am hired.

Draw Your Life.

Today I marathon watched a TON of Jenna Marbles videos, because you know, she's awesome and I haven't actually watched any of her videos in like forever. I came across this one. It was really cute at first. She kept going back to this reoccurring feeling of "Sad Jenna" and not knowing what to do with her. The more I kept watching, the more I realized I could relate. I don't know what I'm doing....

My plan had been to graduate college at 21 and be in a Ph. D. program by now....but that didn't happen. Life got in the way. And here I am at 23 and I've finally finished my bachelors and I'll be working on a Master's really soon.

I moved to Houston because I thought this is where I wanted to be. But now I don't think it is....I want to see more of the world. Live somewhere outside of Texas for awhile.

I quit my job recently so I could focus on doing something more closely related to my master's degree, which is in French. But where the eff am I going to work in Houston and speak French?

I don't know where I am heading. And neither did Jenna Marbles when she made this video, and now look at her. She's pretty popular. I think the whole Youtube thing worked out for her. She just kept doing what she loved because it made her happy.

There was one part of the video that really spoke to me. "You have to be confused in life in order to grow". So maybe I'm confused and I don't know where I am going, but maybe that means I'm on the right track. Maybe I'll have more things figured out as time goes on. Or maybe not, at least I'm growing.

Missing

Ever have that feeling? I'm finally pursuing my two passions and yet there is something missing....I can't put my finger on it. 

Where This One Goes....

The place I call home. 

I've been away from the blogging scene for awhile now. I'm hoping to return to it. I'm not sure entirely what this blog will be about. Maybe kind of like a diary or something. I limited my last blog and I think I got bored with it. I want this one to be different and better. More unlimited. I guess we will see where this one goes....